One morning, as I was doing my devotional I felt God ask me, what am I doing with what He has given me. Now for some of you, you may feel a little confused and I will explain in a little while. As for others… you know exactly what I am talking about. (Psst. This is going to be a long one)
I remember when God placed it in my heart to write, to use a gift I didn’t even know existed in me (in this form anyway). I was excited at first, but didn’t understand how I would and could reach the people He wanted me to, being the type of person I am – an introvert with a weird feeling about sharing what matters most to me.
There is a story in the Bible, called The Parable of Talents in Matthew 25:15-29, it’s short but, one of those ones that really makes you think. If you haven’t read it before, the story speaks about three men and a master. The master gives each of them talents according to their ability; one, five talents, another two and the other, one talent. See, the one with two talents, didn’t stop to envy the man with five talents. He just went to work, nurturing his talent and developed them. He prepped himself and sort out the best route, it probably wasn’t easy sometimes and felt weary. But he built tenacity whilst doing so and reaped from it.
After coming to that conclusion, I felt myself stumble upon another question; Am I like the third servant? Who was afraid of losing his talent? Afraid of failing? Afraid of everything going up in smoke and landing back in his face? I wondered if I felt any of these thoughts towards my own talents, gifts, skills or time. If I didn’t want to work on my skills, afraid that someone would steal it, or use me to their advantage. As I have gone on this mini journey of faith blogging, and spoken to people who were in the same niche or wanted to chase their dreams in general, they have all faced some sort of disappointment or setback that resulted in them to stop dreaming. Stop hoping. At one point, we have all been burdened by the harsh realities of this world, that we then feel, there is no space or point to continue dreaming.
Am I like the third servant, who thought my gift was too small to develop? Meaningless, compared to the many other people that are doing the same if not similar thing. And let’s not forget, they have many more followers than I have, and are reaching to more people too. Lord, what could I possibly do? I won’t even try. It’s a waste of time… I am sure, some of these thoughts, have gone through your mind a couple of times, but we are told in the Bible to not despise humble beginnings. If the third servant, worked on what he was given, he would’ve gained another. After all, it’s progress we should strive to reach, not perfection, quantity or someone else’s field. They are telling a different story to the one we are telling.
With God, He loves dreams and visions. That’s how He communicates His plans and purpose to us. He has carefully etched something deeply within you, that made you want to start blogging, start writing music, start drawing in your journal and chances are, those feelings won’t go away. They will just grow and grow. He’s waiting for us, like the master, to use, develop and harness that skill, that talent, that gift and hand it back to Him, so He can empower you.
I have now learnt (although not always easy) to say, “Lord, you have entrusted me with this gift of writing, the gift to serve, the ability to design. See, what I have done with it!” And Our Father in Heaven will respond and say, “Well done, my good and faithful child! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master’s happiness!” v.23
Stay tuned for part 2, where I talk about a more practical way on how not to despise small beginnings, make use of the amount (however big or small it may be) we’ve been given and still press on.